Another Birthday Rolls By

Many moons ago, I was 5 months.

Now, another birthday just rolls on by. 
Enjoyed a veg La Ratatouille for birthday lunch with family at a French Restaurant in Berkeley. Been curious about this dish ever since the Pixar movie.
Got a lot of wishes on FB/ IG & Twitter
What really made my day was this Card from the Spectrum Board. 




















This is what Belonging starts to look like

Wanted to share this card that my peers (neurotypical & autistic) at Spectrum at Cal made for me for my birthday . What I really appreciated was that it was an acknowledgement of care from my peers who put in time and effort (instead of a facebook like) to organize and bring together this multi page card with thoughtful messages. That they cared enough to do that was just so so unexpected and deeply touching. I just loved it. Really the best bday card I have ever received.

This is what "Belonging" starts to look like!!

















Bias in Autism - Implicit and Explicit Bias.

Bias in autism can broadly be categorized into implicit (unconscious) and explicit (conscious) bias, both of which play significant roles in perpetuating inequality and discrimination.  Implicit Bias refers to automatic and unconscious attitudes or stereotypes that influence behavior and decision-making, often to the detriment of autistic individuals by perpetuating stereotypes and inequities. Explicit Bias involves conscious and deliberate prejudices or discriminatory actions against autistic individuals, leading to overt discrimination, stigmatization, and exclusion. [Read more on Implicit and Explicit Bias]

PlainSpeak: Bias in autism can be divided into two main types: implicit (unconscious) and explicit (conscious) bias. Both play big roles in keeping unfair treatment and inequality going. Implicit Bias means having automatic, hidden thoughts or feelings about autism that affect actions and decisions without realizing it, often causing unfair treatment. Explicit Bias is when someone knowingly and openly has negative thoughts or treats autistic people unfairly, leading to clear acts of discrimination and exclusion [ Read more on Implicit & Explicit Bias - PlainSpeak Version

A Boy Like Me

In Feb 2021, I  wrote an article for Alice Wong's Disability Visibility Project (https://disabilityvisibilityproject.com/2021/02/06/a-boy-like-me/) that covers a number of issues around non-speaking autistics (text of the autism also at end of this post). It went onto having quite the impact. 

Places it was mentioned

1. TIME Magazine (Sarah Kurchak), February 25, 2021


("In the interest of fairness, I did watch Music for the sake of this piece. I won’t evaluate it as representation, as I believe that non-speaking autistic people should be leading that conversation. (For more on the topic, I recommend starting with the short film produced by CommunicationFIRST and the essays by Mickayla and Hari Srinivasan.)")


2. The Independent (Helen Brown), February 25, 2021



As the film’s final contributor, Hari Srinivasan, concludes: 'If you have a voice, you can use it to help bring dignity back for the members of the more marginalized autistics.' He says that we need to change the narrative around non-speaking autistics and improve visibility in society – and pop culture – so that more actors who might better fill a role like Music in Sia’s film can come to the fore and be seen, and I agree. It’s only those tired old stereotypes that deserve to be crushed.")

3. Canadian Broadcasting Corporation (Gloria Macarenko), February 18, 2021


(non-transcripted radio clip) 
("One of the big organizations, I believe they are called CommunicationFIRST,  ... and they were completely ignored [by Sia]. ... That type of false promise is so damaging for trust in terms of a disability community or a minority community against a majority voice that is trying to talk over us." "As autistic AAC users like Cal Mongtomery, Damon Kirsebom, and Hari Srinivasan said in the film LISTEN, which was made in response to Sia's film, 'Ask nonspeaking autistics. Listen to nonspeaking autistics.'")






Full text of the article


A Boy Like Me. 
by Hari Srinivasan

One morning in late November 2020, I woke up to find that my rather modest twitter account had somehow gained around 1500 followers overnight. The final exams were upon me and various projects and papers were coming due, so I was not quite “woke” to what was going on outside my academic bubble at UC Berkeley, at least not till the exams were out of the way.

It turned out that I had been mentioned in a conversation by Julia Bascom, the executive director of the Autistic Self Advocacy Network (or ASAN) of which I am also a board member. The conversation had been about a trailer released by the Australian music artist, Sia, for a musical titled “Music,” which featured a nonspeaking autistic character, also named Music. The twitter furor was over the fact that a non-disabled person, specifically a non-autistic, had been cast in that role of a nonspeaking autistic character. And it seems, the movie has received a Golden Globe nomination.

There was all kinds of wrong in the above scenario and for me almost a sense of deja vu. It immediately brought to mind the 2005 documentary, “A Girl Like Me,” by Kiri Davis that we had seen in my Stigma and Prejudice class at UC Berkeley. The point of the documentary was the lack of authentic representation of Black girls in the media, including even their hair and facial features. After all, the media often shapes how we view ourselves and how others around us view and esteem our place in society. When there is lack of representation or improper representation, it directly feeds into the internalization of stigma, where your membership in a group is the very cause of your negative self-esteem, feelings of inferiority and even feelings of self-hatred. In fact, in a 1940 study by Kenneth and Mamie Clark studying self-perception of race, Black girls had identified White dolls as preferred and good, while Black dolls were less preferred and associated with bad. That study went onto becoming part of the testimony used in the 1954 Brown v. Board of Education Supreme Court ruling.

Growing up, I too have wondered on the lines of “A Boy Like Me.” Where was this boy I could look up to and emulate from in books, in movies, and on TV? Someone who had to navigate the world of limited spoken communication skills and perhaps brown too? Did a boy like me even go to college and dare to dream of accomplishing great things? Where was this boy like me? I only saw Stephen Hawking on the one end and then Sheldon Cooper of the Big Bang Theory on the other.

When they did include a nonspeaking autistic character in a movie, it usually traumatized me. The focus was invariably a meltdown by the autistic accompanied by a helpless looking able bodied person that the audience sympathized with and rooted for. The meltdown was the entertainment value which gained brownie points and built character for the long-suffering caretaker.

So the fundamental question remains – do meltdowns, whether it is due to sensory overstimulation or any other reason, define the entirety of the nonspeaking autistic who is still a living, breathing and thinking individual? If such sensationalized scenes are the only images being flashed over and over, in movie after movie, what impression is being cemented about the members of this group to the rest of society? What kind of opportunities can this group hope to have if society deems them incapable or is even fearful of them at the door itself? Will they ever be allowed to be included and visible in mainstream society? What about the potential internalized harm and trauma of this stigma for members of this group?

The fact of the matter is that many nonspeaking autistics can be contributing members of society too, and go onto accomplishing much, for those who desire and are given the right opportunities to do so. Negative and fearful stereotypes result in gatekeeping of both opportunities and acceptance. Besides, the worth of an individual should not be based on their ability to contribute. Some autistics simply can’t due to the nature of their disability and that’s ok. The point being that every human life (abled or degrees of disabled) has value and this is the message that needs to be portrayed in plot lines of movies and TV. One of the things that stood out to me in my Stigma class was how continued and frequent exposure to exemplars of the category would help reduce and replace that automaticity of connection which in turn would reduce prejudice. Which basically means nonspeaking characters in plot lines need to be shown as being creative, being innovative, being involved in the community, going to college, working in new innovative and non-traditional ways, and doing great things; with all of these images presented continually and frequently in order to change mindsets.

I’m one of those nonspeaking autistics or minimally speaking autistics. I can maybe speak a dozen “want phrases” and repeat or read out a few other phrases after much practice but holding down a full length meaningful conversation using “speech” is still a work in progress for me. I would very much like to recite my poetry in my own voice and get to some basic talking conversational skills, so I keep practicing. Having to type every thought can be time consuming and exhausting, devices can be unpredictable, they are not readily accessible the way your tongue is and batteries die. Then there is my body which itself can often feel like a car with a loose steering wheel, I never quite know which way it will decide to go with a brain-body disconnect, oral-motor apraxia, repetitive body movements and sensory dysregulation issues. Meltdowns are part of my existence, and I have struggled with them.

But I’m also a student at UC Berkeley, excelling at academics and I get to do many things including being a student journalist and being part of research labs and advocacy. And get this: I teach a class on autism as a student instructor, which is a societal oxymoron, as teaching and nonspeaking autistics are not thought possible together. Me as a teacher – well, that thought startles me all the time too and seems almost unreal and temporary, an internalized cognitive dissonance, as maybe I am still caught up in my own internalization of stigma built up over the years in the special education system where negative stereotypes are often perpetuated, whether knowingly or unknowingly.

The other, though less annoying, stereotype of the nonspeaking autistic is the large headphones that we all apparently must wear. There is no factoring in of individual differences or situational differences. The message being sent is that you can whisk away sensory differences by plopping noise-cancelling headphones on a nonspeaking autistic’s ears. Problem solved and a pat on the back! Unfortunately, it doesn’t work that way as some sudden sounds can end up being magnified. Let me illustrate with an example. In all earnestness I wore headphones to my first college football game to help dampen out the crowd noise. Then came the cannon shot, fired in celebration right after a touchdown, which ended up magnified in my headphones. I got the fright of my life, my heart was racing so fast I thought I would just keel over and my eardrums would burst as I raced out of the stadium in agitated alarm. As I heard and read later, noise cancelling works by phase cancelling the peaks and valleys of regular repeated sound waves, but are less effective with sudden unexpected peaks, the cannon shot in this case, which I’m guessing sounded even louder in contrast to the other dampened noises.

Coming back to Sia’s movie, while I have not seen the film, the reviews I read are troubling as the film seems to reinforce societal negative stereotypes about autism, agency, disability as a burden, and about “sending the more difficult autistics away” to a facility, at the convenience of the caretaker, where they can be tucked out of sight and out of mind of society and rendered invisible. The film features not one but three entertainment-value meltdowns. BUT OF COURSE (sarcasm intended)! For me, it will be another traumatizing movie featuring plot lines to avoid.

What is also worrying about Sia’s film is the apparent use of restraints, which is very reminiscent of the residential Judge Rotenberg Center where GED devices (for electric skin shocks) were routinely being used as aversives in behavior therapy. In fact, getting congress on board to urge the FDA to finalize its rule on banning these electric shock devices by the JRC was one of the issues my 2019 ASAN cohort (at the Autism Campus Inclusion) lobbied for in Capitol Hill. While the FDA did finally finalize its rule towards banning these specific electric shock devices last year, it does not preclude other forms of punishments, harsh aversives, or restraints by the JRC or any facility. In fact, another legislation my ASAN cohort had lobbied for at Capitol Hill was KASSA (Keeping All Students Safe Act) which would hold schools accountable. With respect to Sia’s movie, ASAN, Alliance Against Seclusion and Restraint and CommunicationFIrst, the only nonprofit organization dedicated to protecting the civil rights of people who do not rely on “speaking” to communicate, issued a joint statement calling the portrayal of restraints as dangerous as such media portrayal by a Golden Globe nominated movie would help normalize the use of restraints against the disabled in the public psyche.

The disability community has long argued for positive and proper representation of disability in the media. Check out the Ford Foundation white paper on authentic and positive representation by legendary disability rights activist, Judy Heumann. Representation was also a much discussed topic in the events organized around the celebrations leading up to the 30th anniversary of the Americans with Disabilities Act last year (here is one review I wrote for the Daily Californian).

The essence of authentic representation is that a disabled character in a movie plot be played by a person who actually has that disability, just as a White person can’t be an authentic representation of a Black person. It is the whole idea and hope for “A Boy Like Me.”

When the trailer for Sia’s musical came out, there was much outrage amongst the disability and autistic community in that an autistic should have been used to play the nonspeaking role. There were even news articles and interviews with some autistics apparently saying they were available and would have easily played that role if only they had been called by Sia.

Let’s pause a little here – we know that autism is such a wide spectrum where the lived experiences of a speaking autistic can be different from that of a non-speaker, each individual with their unique level of support needs in other areas. For instance, using AAC (augmentative alternative communication technology) is by no means as simple as is portrayed in the media with the stereotype of a limited set of icons on an iPad screen that apparently takes care of every possible communication need of a human across every scenario. Our emotional bandwidth itself is reduced to just a few emotion icons much like Facebook. You have to turn the device on, get to the correct app, clear the screen and hope the app does not freeze on you at a critical moment. The reality is that it’s not always available or accessible, or just plain difficult to navigate, so that is a whole set of additional issues to contend with along with other autism issues, topped off by anxiety in having to manage all these in a real time conversation even as the other person is staring impatiently at you for a quick response not realizing that AAC is never going to match the speed or ease of talking. The point being, how does that former autistic become an authentic representation of the latter nonspeaking autistic? How is that “A Boy Like Me?” Aren’t we just being a little ableist here?

I don’t know if there are many nonspeaking autistic actors out there. For instance, I may be a good writer and storyteller but would make for a terrible actor. Other intersectional identities, abilities and interests may mean that not every nonspeaking autistic actor is a match for every role that comes up.

I recognize that there are no easy or quick solutions when it comes to actors as you have to match up many things. But we can try to involve non-speaking autistics in other parts of media representation about them, even if there are not sufficient numbers of nonspeaking autistic actors to make it to the front of the camera at the moment. For example, in animated movies, I would like to see more non-meltdown focused plot lines. The representation must be both authentic and positive. How about turning some of these perceived negatives into positives? Maybe that heightened sensory perception can be used to sense clues and solve crimes in a detective story for instance, whether as a main or supporting character. And as soon as I wrote that sentence, my mind started thinking of many positive plot lines.

The disability rights movement has been about speaking “with” the marginalized group by being their ally, and not “for” them by removing agency. What I would like to see from my speaking autistic allies is outrage against such plot lines and stereotyping and helping build better technology that can make communication itself more accessible.

But at a more fundamental level, I would like to see much more outrage by my speaking autistic allies at the invisibility of nonspeakers in mainstream society. I believe this invisibility starts with the use of functioning labels. By labels I refer to the very stigmatizing and dehumanizing functioning label of low functioning. Being branded low sets you up for low educational expectations, low societal expectations and gatekeeping from the get go, it sets you up for lifelong failure. No one willingly labels themselves as low, it is others doing so.

“Low” becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy as shown in the Rosenthal & Jacobson study way back in 1968 – someone’s expectation about a person or group leads to the fulfillment of those expectations. When teachers were told a certain group of (randomly selected) students would do better, they did end up doing better; the better performance was attributed to the teacher’s behavior. By extension, if a teacher is given a child with the “low” prefix, unconscious bias will translate to lower expectations for the rest of that individual’s life.

In addition, terms like “low” will cause an almost priming effect as shown by Higgins, Rhône’s, & Jones (1977). In that study, one group of participants were exposed to, or primed with, negative words like, “reckless and stubborn,” while the other group was primed with positive words like, “adventurous and persistent.” They were then asked their interpretation of a person after reading a rather ambiguous description of him. The positively primed group had a positive image and vice versa. Similarly, in the 1966 Bargh, Chen & Burrows study, when participants were primed with “elderly words” they walked slower after leaving the experiment.

The point: labels influence outcomes!

Remember “high” is a problem too as it is a relative term, its presence implies some sort of superiority and its absence indicates its opposite, which is “low.” So we must get rid of both labels. We need to be autistics together, neurodivergent together, disabled together, humans together.

Clinicians, educators, scholars and therapists still routinely use these functioning labels. If you have a voice, you can use it to help bring dignity back for the members of the more marginalized autistics. Use the power of social media to spread the message. Interrupt the usage of the functioning labels when you hear it and encourage the alternative terminology of “support needs.” And let’s change the plot lines and the narratives around nonspeaking autistics so more and more are allowed to be visible in society and avail of opportunities in all kinds of areas. Then we will truly see more and more nonspeaking autistic actors who will be able to provide us with more positive and authentic representations.

We need to open opportunities for all of us to be included and belong in society. Langston Hughes had said, “I, too, am America;” to which I will add, “I, too, am human!”












The Happiness Advantage

I'm reading "The Happiness Advantage" by Shawn Achor and wanted to pen my thoughts on it as I read along. And I'm taking the Happiness Advantage DeCal.

Watch this space for updates as I read more

Introduction: 

I would title this Waiting to be Happy, which kind of reminded me in a strange way of Samuel Beckett's Waiting for Godot. Essentially Acher says we are living milestone to milestone, in the false sense of belief that next milestone will bring us happiness. We think happiness follows success but the reality is the opposite. 

Discovering the Happiness Advantage

In this chapter the author writes of how he saw Harvard as a privilege that can open doors, yet many students lose sight of that, complaining incessantly about the workload. In contrast are the children of Soweto township, a majority of whom loved schoolwork, as many were the first in their family to even get schooling. 

I can personally relate. Berkeley is a privilege that I truly cherish and appreciate. The privilege comes with workload, but isn't that to be expected if you go to a top university.  I was starved of education till age 12. I was in a special education classroom that still taught me kindergarten level skills even at age 12. It was never expected I would get exposure to mainstream academics, get a high school diploma, let alone a college education.  College, and that too Berkeley is a privilege, which adds to my self-esteem, my self-confidence, my dignity. It will open different doors, that are closed in special education. So workload is just a one part of the glorious education. Education itself is a privilege. For this starving mind, the search for knowledge can never end.

Berkeley is my magical place, my Hogwarts and a bonus is that it is the birthplace of the Disability Rights Movement. I look beyond the workload to appreciate the high quality of teaching and the way it expands my perspectives in my world view, how it helps me grow personally, and how it nudges me in my future life towards working on social justice issues and hopefully making into reality positive societal changes too. 

I liked how Acher termed Positive Psychology as "what makes people thrive and excel" rather than bringing the focus on the unhappy and bringing them back to normal.  

I also feel for instance that Autism/Disability is treated as a deficit model which is very devaluing to the autistic. Team meetings during my elementary years  of ABA therapy for instance was invariably dominated with a litany of all that I WOULD NOT or COULD NOT do. Wouldn't it be nice if the child, (who is usually present in these meetings to demonstrate said lack of skill) could also hear a litany of what they CAN DO as well. There are going to be areas that we may never catch up on or never learn. Yet in other areas we may just outstrip our NT peers. It is going to be hard to be average. 

A parallel to Acher's "Cult of the Average" in the autism space is meeting the milestone of "age-appropriate behavior," which in itself is a moving target as society shifts attitudes. 

As Acher's points out we are starved of happiness since we are so focused on the negatives whether it's from external news or internal ourselves. Our brains have been crammed with facts and theory but not how to "maximize the brain's potential to find meaning and happiness".

7 principles

  1. Happiness Advantage
  2. Fulcrum & Lever
  3. Tetris Effect
  4. Falling Up
  5. Zorro Circle
  6. 20 second rule
  7. Social Investment


Climate Change rinse repeat

 It's another week of rains and heavy winds in the Bay Area and warnings of flash floods. Why? The ground in the  burnt down by the wildfires of last year won't be able to absorb the water, which would create landslides. 

We were are seeming continued effect of climate change in action. 








Marginalized Bodies as Disposable Bodies

 A presentation done in class today

 















Found Objects in Nature

Found Objects in Nature
Is what we think of as"Natural/Nature" really all that Natural?

I have not one but 2 found objects that I want to bring up.

One is the Albany Bulb.  It is this jutting piece of peninsula that hugs the Bay Trail in Albany, and a delightful place to hike. As you meander down the neck (the narrow part) to the actual roundish bulb at the end, you feel you are almost at an island out in the bay, with delightful view of the Bay Bridge on the one side and the Golden Gate Bridge and the hilly Marin county on the other. Sitting there, you can watch the poetry of the sun set over the silver ocean at dusk. Sometimes, you are granted the company of seagulls, ospreys and a falcon as you drink in the view.

But like the Rocky Mountain Arsenal, the Albany Bulb is also the site of a former man-made landfill (till 1983) from construction sites including the nearby Golden Gate Fields Racetrack. The early history of the Bay Area not only meant deforestation of Oakland trees to construct much of San Francisco but also an attempt to fill the shallow Bay. Remains of construction concrete and rebar litter the ground of the bulb though now overgrown by non-native vegetation like acacias, broom, fennel and palm. It is also become a habitat for small wildlife like snakes, owls, hares and the like. But you can still seen rusted iron rods peering out of giant concrete slabs making for a footing that needs care.

From the 1990s it also became a place for the homeless, who faced periodic eviction by the city as their numbers grew. It has also been an artist mecca of sorts with interesting artwork littered around the bulb, many using the debris found on the bulb.

At the end of the day, the bulb is a manmade creation which has had significant impacts on the natural world around it, like altering bay currents. Yet it is now considered part of the natural setting of the East Bay Parks and Trails. It gives us a moment of pause as we reflect upon the fact that what we now think of as "natural" was in fact not natural at all but a manmade artifact.

The 2nd found object I have noticed for a long time now are the “Vista Points” that one sees along the freeways. There is some irony in that we have to create designated spaces so that we humans can take a break to enjoy nature. Have we altered nature so much that it is now has to be compartmentalized into our lives?




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Comments:

I love that you chose the Albany landfill and elude to its interesting recent local history. It's a place I have a longstanding relationship to and have observed so many changes with how the space is used by humans (and their dogs) over the years. It's the first place I remember seeing a shooting star in the city. So much of the bay's coastline is infill, something that has created disastrous effects to large earthquakes in the area...makes me think about the part of the Cronon piece that talked about the unnaturalness of "natural disasters."

I like how you mentioned that society must "create designated spaces so that we humans can take a break to enjoy nature". I can definitely relate to this. This statement made me realize that in every day actions society has normalized the fact that we must be grateful for being able to access local parks and preserves for enjoying nature and escaping our metropolis when in reality it is us humans that have taken away from nature to begin with.

I found your second object particularly interesting to me! It reminds me of parks/ gardens that exist in cities so that people can get away from the concrete/ constructed world and be in a more "natural" setting. I also thought about nature conservatories and zoos, which are literally here to conserve parts of nature that would otherwise be extinct due to human alteration of the world.

Thanks for sharing, Hari! I too enjoy walking around and enjoying the views at Albany bulb. It's so interesting to consider its history. It almost makes me feel guilty to be enjoying the space at the expense of unhoused people who were evicted. I also love how the bay, lingering debris, and art come together to produce a space that is not strictly natural or unnatural.











Hindsight is 2020



This doc is a work in progress as I try to trackback the far -from-ordinary year we've been in. Most of the year ended up being dominated by this microscopic virus which suddenly changed all that we took for granted in the world around us letting us witness both the worst of times and the best of humankind. And if I don't talk about the political landscape - that's intentional. It's too emotion for the mind to handle.

January

Jan 1, 2020 was the dawn of a new decade, a year where this century would leave its teen years and enter into the heady years of the 20s.  I even wrote a poem for 2020 and another one Daily Cal Renaissance Man for the Daily Cal.

I'd been very excited about the courses I was to take in Spring especially Human Happiness. I had heard Professor Dacher Keltner speak during my Golden Bear Orientation and had waited for the opportunity to take this course. I'd even done an interview with him for the Daily Cal (Towards a Life of Meaning). And what a terrific course it turned out to be. I was Back in Wheeler Hall, my fav lecture hall covering topics one does not associate with academics - awe, gratitude, empathy. I was in total awe. Even got a shoutout by Prof Keltner during one lecture which was thrilling.

Discussion sections were in Dwinelle Hall on Thursdays from 5 to 6pm. As I stepped out of Dwinelle Hall after the discussion section, I would be greeted by the music of the Campanile, playing its concert. It was truly Happiness happens at Six. It was going to be another great year.

I was taking a Business Class for the first time at Haas Business School.

I'd finished the CITI training required by the IRB for research with human subjects and joined Prof Harvey's Lab, Rhe Golden Bear Mood and Sleep Research Clinic as an RA. Back also at the RadMad Disability Lab, teaching the Autism Decal and being on the board of SpectrumAtCal.

February

My family and I, all came down with a bad case of the flu early Feb and were quite sick for over one after the other. One has to wonder if we had a version of covid that time itself.

Feb 3, I was invite to join the ASAN board.

My birthday falls in February. I got to both celebrate with the weekender team and also with my family at an SF restaurant. Little did I know that would be my last restaurant outing for the year.
The coronavirus had started making some waves and uneasiness was creeping into the air. At my SpectrumAtCal meetings one of the other board members mentioned how worried she was about her family and the situation in China. But it was still a far away event in the minds of people living here.

March

Mar 5: I presented live at UCSF CME 19th Annual Dev Disabilities Conf. A Growth Mindset - Reimagining Possibilities for Minimally Speaking Autistics . I remember being told to be very careful not to touch anything, shake hands and did not spend a moment longer than necessary at the conference site. 

The coronavirus lockdown "Shelter-At-Home" went into full swing right after. Students were asked to go home and campuses started shutting down. 

April 

Education transitioned to a world of boxed figures on a laptop screen. Students and instructors both struggled to understand this new mode of instruction.

How did I cope? 
Cole (Current President of the student body, Spectrum and Cal) and I worked on interviewing candidates for the AY 20-21 board position including that of President. While I had never actively sought the role of President of Spectrum, I somehow I found myself as its first nonspeaking President for the upcoming year. 

A silver lining: Carbon emissions dropped dramatically across the world. Animals were rediscovering terrain they had been driven out of before. Nature seemed to be coming alive. 

May

May brought the "shelter-at-home" finals exams but no relief with respect to the coronavirus. 
My grades: Still hanging onto that 4.0 GPA. 

June

In the larger world Black Lives Matter movement gathered momentum with the protests against police brutality against Blacks. A memorial at the end of my street to the fallen bears testimony. 

I found myself busy with other things too. I was attending the 13 week Virtual Crip Camp which was such an interesting experience each week. There were even after parties. 


I was in a Stanford Neurodiversity Design Workshop. 

I was part of a Supported Decision Making Focus group. 

I kept writing for the  Daily Cal: Fixed

July 

Jul 17:  I got the chance to co-moderate a conversation with the one and only Judy Heumann on AAC, disability policy, activism, and much more. AAC Users chat with Disability Rights Legend, Judy Heumann 

Articles in the Daily Cal: #1Authentic Representation in Media #2 Superfest Shorts

July 26.  Quite the biggest surprise of my life, I think. I got a mention on President Obama's Instagram, that too on the 30th anniversary of the Americans with Disabilities Act. 

August

8/13: I presented at the UCSB Disability Studies Initiative Summer Speaker Series. My presentation titled Potential and Possibities through a Disability Justice Lens  can be seen at the link.  

8/27: Just before college reopened I was in a Coronavirus Information Series with the Autism Society of America in a conversation with Chris Banks, President of ASA. College Advocacy and Beyond - Autism Society of America 

I start an internship with NeuroNav. 

Articles in the Daily Cal: #1ADA in Color , #2 Disability Visibility, , 

The fall semester at college was to be all online. To be frank, I was getting quite zoom fatigued already. 

My fifth semester leading the Autism DeCal at UC Berkeley. All remote this time. The classes were to be 2 hours long. So more lecture content was introduced. 

Even before its first formal board meeting, Spectrum at Cal was participating in the Mental Health Week events with 2 events of our own "Autistics Belong, An Intro to Spectrum" and "How to be an ally to Neurodivergents". More zoom meetings of course. 

September

California went through another year of crazy wildfires. Last year we were only affected by the smoke with a blanket of toxic air descending on us form fires up north. This year fires were close to home - a lot of places within the Bay Area evacuated. And with it the toxic air. 

Sep 9: Spectrum at Cal first Board Meeting for the semester. 

I co-authored this section from the Stanford Rebuild Project Anxiety as Comorbidity in Neurodiversity  which I had started towards the end of summer. 

Invited to be part of a Delphi panel by AASPIRE for an AutPROM Toolbox - a set of Patient-Reported Outcome Measures  that can be used to evaluate the effectiveness of services for autistic adults. What I enjoyed about this ex which ran through December was that it ran parallel to my Research Methods course which discussed the theoretical and statistical aspects of scale creation, so it was like seeing theory and real life application unfold at the same time. These are scales you read about in Psychology and I got see and comment on 50 of them. 

DeStigmatizing AutismConversation with Berkeley Seniors on their "Spilling the Cha Podcast" - where Eli and I discuss Spectrum StudentOrg , the Autism Decal and living with Autism.
Articles in the Daily Californian: The Social Dilemma. 

Articles in the NeuroNav Newsletter # Silver Linings & Creative Workarounds #  NeuroNav Launches SDP, # Meet Your Navigator Sabrina KappeThe Making of a Social Impact Organization

October

SpectrumAtCal held its own Black Autistic Lives Matter event.

I presented at the Stanford Neurodiversity Summit. Hari As PossibilityCollege Track.
October is Disability Awareness Month and Daily Cal came out with their first every Disability Special Issue. Quite ironic given that UC Berkeley is considered the birthplace of the disability rights movement. But really it better late than never and I'm so happy I was able to really get this issue off the ground and play a huge role in it besides writing 2 pieces for it. 


Somewhere in between were interesting academic courses, midterms and two projects.

November 

The year seemed to be rushing towards an end even as the turmoil of the political landscape was mentally stressing and endlessly exhausting. 

A busy month with three personal events and a video 

Transitions to Adulthood - ASAN Gala Panel 

Log Kya Kahenge (What will people say!) - Abelism in the South Asian Community
ACL Panel. A cross-group campus event. 

A Video on Why I vote for Disability Rights CA. 

A fever pitch buildup to the Elections. 

Articles in the NeuroNav Newsletter #1 The Importance of Gratitude #2 Love Each Other and wear a Mask

Spectrum at Cal held its acceptance week with a Research Panel and a Policy Panel. 

December

Dec 2: Prof. Victor Pineda said he'd nominated me to be on the Doha Debates show - how can you turn down a request like that. This year Doha Debates with host Nelufar Hedayat, was running a #DearWorldLive series addressing critical issues around the globe. The  Disability Justice Special on Dear World Live  was on Dec 2, UN International Persons with Disability Day. I was the student voice asking questions of the amazing Judy Heumann and Haben Girma 

Doha Debates also asked me for a separate message for World Disability Day. Here is my message on Inclusion and Belonging

Dec 3: The Opportunity of Education - Speaker at Neurodiversity: A Paradigm Shift, Conf by University College, Dublin, Ireland (video not up yet) 

Two Projects due. For my stigma & prejudice class and one to be done all in R for my Statistics Class. 

I'm super proud of all that SpectrumAtCal has been able to accomplish this semester despite it being a remote semester. We also kicked off a new Peer-to-Peer Mentorship program by partnering with WeEmbrace amongst other things. 

Final exams: Yes!! with the 4.0 GPA intact. I love my courses at Cal. 

Dec 22: I play host with guest, ASA CEO, Chris Banks for Autism Society of America's Coronavirus Information Series Year End Recap.

Covid: US/World , Cases 18.3K/77.9 Deaths 323K/1.71M

The elections are over but why still so much uncertainty. 


Mentally it has been a rough year. I have felt that I may have regressed in some areas that are more obvious and in ways I am not quite able to define. 

In a way I'm glad I had a lot of activities and work to mentally occupy my mind, there have been some amazing silver linings for me this year, so I can't say that 2020 has been a total wash. 

A Chat with Chris Banks of Autism Society


From: 

 https://extendatouch.com/blog/1225-2/?category_name=autism


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CORONAVIRUS INFORMATION SERIES: An exceptional interview about Hari Srinivasan

Watch this captivating and inspiring interview: https://bit.ly/3aOijEx CORONAVIRUS INFORMATION SERIES: An exceptional interview hosted by Self-Advocate and Activist, Hari Srinivasin and Autism Society CEO, Christopher Banks.

Hari Srinivasan is a minimally-speaking autistic who types to communicate. He learned to type and communicate only at age 13.

The ability to communicate opened up access to mainstream education and he graduated as valedictorian from his high school.

Srinivasan is currently pursuing psychology at UC Berkeley with a minor in Disability Studies. Visit Autism Society of America for more information: https://www.autism-society.org/