Showing posts with label Berkeley Haas Scholar. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Berkeley Haas Scholar. Show all posts

Last Class at Berkeley

This day 2 years ago.  

OMG. My very last undergrad class at Berkeley. 

Berkeley Haas Scholars at work. 



Capturing Joy

 This time in Jan 2022

With my Haas Scholars Cohort on the UC Berkeley Campus. 

We were back to in-person meetings though fully masked indoors. 


Kevin, 2nd from Left, just got into Columbia Law. 
Huge Congrats Kevin! You will surely change the world with your work on prison reform. 


An Awesome Year


An Awesome Year

A sobering reality: I continue to have a ton of autism challenges and have not made much headway on those year after frustrating year much to my sorrow. They do consume a good part of my day; almost 95% of my life. I do wish that we as a society find solutions to those - both on the non-medical and medical front. However I also want to focus on the positives in this post because those give meaning for me to keep going even as I hope and search for solutions on other fronts. So here's the 5% awesome part even as they are tempered by the other 95%.

Awesome 2022


2022 was an awesome year.
An awesome year it was.
Like the tortoise (in Hare & Tortoise), I took slow strides.
Each autistic step - a belief in the Possibility of Me.
#redefine_the_table, #Hari_as_possibility
From Possibility comes Opportunity


Meeting the President and the Vice-President

2022 was the year I got to go to DC. Twice.
First time to meet with VP Kamala Harris at the Naval Observatory.
A second time I went to the White House where I got to shake President Biden's hand.
What an incredible incredible honor.


Who could have imagined stuff like this for me.
Getting an invite to the White House.
Meeting the President of the US
Just how awesome is that!!


I graduate from UC Berkeley


I'm a college graduate in year 2022. It feels so good. This was a kid that was not even expected to get a high school diploma. My lot was to be in special education and not aspire for much more. Education was the candy in the candy store with me firmly told to be outside.


This was a degree ++ with dollops of unexpected extra bonuses. I absolutely am relishing it.


How awesome is this?
I am just so darn proud of that yearned for degree
Young man, you must be doing some stuff right.
Cuz. along with degree there was even more
Additional appreciation in the most unexpected forms.


University Medal Finalist, I sit on Commencement stage with Chancellor & a Nobel Laureate
Departmental Citation, I give the Department Commencement Speech
Highest Distinction (other universities call this Summa Cum Laude)
Phi Beta Kappa, Psi Chi and 4.0 GPA
Awesome icing on a Berkeley degree


Undergraduate Research


As a Haas Scholar I not only got funding and mentoring for a year long research but I got to be part of a sagacious community, amongst aspiring change makers in myriad fields. The research was so varied and interesting and I listened in awe as students presented on topics from illegal trash dumping in Oakland to Prison Reform to circular RNA and the spread of dengue virus.

A special shout out to Leah Carroll who runs and is the glue that holds the Haas Scholars program together. She kept us to timelines and managed resources to help us get our resource done. And there was a lot of resource management logistics involved, like getting those participant gift cards out through Bear Buy.

I presented my research at 2 Academic Colloquia (Jan & April), and a SPSS (Society for Personality and Social Psychology) Poster Presentation in Feb. And I continue to work with Prof Keltner to get 2 papers (on awe and empathy) to publication.

I had a wonderful an encouraging mentor for my research in Prof Dacher Keltner.


How awesome is it...
...to research awe in autistics
....be mentored by an expert in the science of awe. 
Just how awesome is that?

Senior Honors Thesis


This research was also part of my Senior Honors Thesis. Every week I sat with my fellow students in the Honors class lead by Prof Linda Wilbrecht. I learned about what my fellow psychology students researched. I was surrounded by fellow researchers both within and outside the field of psychology.

I submitted my thesis on awe to the department in April - all 66 pages of it.

This was a faculty comment about my thesis


- This is truly an excellent honors thesis! The research topic is incredibly important and interesting, and it is unique to probe the autistic experience of awe in comparison with that of neurotypical individuals. The results are very cool, interesting, and complex. Although this is brand new research and more empirical data are needed, the preliminary results, which argue against the emotion deficit view of autistic individuals, are potentially groundbreaking. I hope you will pursue this work further and I hope we will see the work published in a psychology journal in the near future.


How awesome is that?

I think back to when early educators did not want me in their classrooms and every evaluation report and IEPs were a litany of my "lack of accomplishments," or "lack of progress." In fact during my first special ed kindergarten placement, the teacher sent home a note which essentially said that she was concerned at my lack of progress in the first 6 weeks in her classroom. This was to be a repeated story in the all the multiple special ed classrooms I was shuffled around in. 

Think, just how awesome it is for me now, to get comments from educators that rate me as excellent. I'm so so relishing it. 

Autism Decal


Spring semester was my 7th and final semester of Autism Decal. Creation of this impactful class at Berkeley is one of my proudest accomplishments during my undergrad. Just how awesome is it to hear that material from this class was influencing a grad student in Europe in her research. A class that grew from 17 to 50. It even was honored with mention on a US President (President Obama's) Instagram. Just too Awesome. 

The Daily Californian

I wrote my last column for the Daily Cal and waxed nostalgic (understandably).
What a wonderful experience Berkeley has been for me. It was my Golden Bear Song.

PD Soros Fellowship.

I got the call on Jan 7 from Daisy Soros - I'm a PD Soros Fellow. This is a very prestigious fellowship and the chances of getting in were slim. So to get through was rather surreal. 
The news was only to be released in April when 30 scholars graced a full page of the New York Times.

The fellows met at a 4 day conference extravaganza in New York in October.
Daisy Soros sure is a powerhouse at 94 - I am in awe!!
We fellows chatted, met with famous alum, toured New York and more - the Met, a Broadway musical, a Jazz club and a formal cocktail hosted by Daisy Soros. The conference sure was a lifetime experience and what an amazing cohort to be in.

Getting into Grad School

I'd applied to grad school last fall.
Results in early spring.
Decision deadline Apr 15.

Can you believe this guy from grade 8 special ed now actually headed to grad school?

Media Coverage

There was a ton of media coverage around the PD Soros fellowship, my Berkeley graduation and Vanderbilt grad school admission.

I got multiple mentions in various UC Berkeley sites. Daily Cal covered me (a turnaround as I usually write the articles). I even made it to an article in Forbes. There was coverage in many Indian American newspapers and at Vanderbilt too.

All the coverage felt a little overwhelming yet I am totally grateful for all this acknowledgment of my accomplishments. (It helps counter the years and years of trauma build up with the reports of, will never amount to anything, claims)

From California to Tennessee. 

Grad School has meant a move across the country from Berkeley CA to Nashville TN.
It is a new place to adjust too! Transition and autism are not the best of bedfellows. 

I miss the extracurriculars and friends back home. I miss the view of the Bay and Golden Gate Bridge from my California bedroom window. 

It's pretty hot here in summer, a little too hot. But it's also green and lush with lots of rain. The grass is green even in winter due to the rain. Rain-starved California sure could use some of this rain (just not this week as I hear there are Bay Area mudslides due to heavy rains!!). 

I'm not missing the annual wildfire smoke of California. One year the sky turned orange from the smoke and the entire town of Paradise was burnt down. And looks like I narrowly missed some recent big earthquakes in the Bay Area. 

But there are other natural disasters to content with here - like my first tornado spent anxiously in the basement. What if you are traveling on an open road?

Winter is wet and cold with some snow. I'm not so sure I like this level of cold. I experienced my first snow and was housebound for 4-5 days over the winter break till the slick black ice on roads melted away. Being housebound for even a few days was a little scary but of course it's nothing compared to the plight of folks caught in the Buffalo snow blizzard.

Nature is lovely here - a walk in the nearby Percy-Warner park under the shade of the massive trees reminded me of the tall redwoods in Yosemite. The best part is the daily wildlife show. People travel to see such shows. Turkey and deer grace my backyard, with the occasional fox. I watched baby deer frolic around and grow into adults. Myriad birds perch and practice birdsong on the woody vines that hangs from the tall trees. Wildlife with a backdrop of tall lush trees in summer, changing leaf colors in fall and the snow clad barren trees of winter are awesome sights to see.

Nashville is Music City and I hope to get to experience some of that music soon.....

Grad School @Vanderbilt from Fall 

 
Survived first semester.....
A huge change, transitions that quite make the head spin.
Still adjusting, lots of figuring out left to do... a work in progress the next few years.
Fingers crossed that my unpredictable autism challenges let me travel this journey well.
And make useful contributions along the way.


But really, just how awesome has this year been?

Vacations

Got to visit Italy; Florence and Venice & Tuscany countryside over Spring Break. 
India over the summer for my cousin Ved's Poonal ceremony
Memphis over Thanksgiving break. 
And the 2 DC Trips and the NY Trip. 

Hope for an (equally) awesome 2023

I wonder what 2023 will bring?
In the Possibility of Me?

Dare I hope from others
....Surrounded by folks who are patient, encouraging & empathic of my disability
... Make kind friends outside the classroom


Slow purposeful strides, an elephant I want to be.
... Relish learning and knowledge coupled with endless curiosity
... Use Advocacy & Research to add more pebbles that widen ripples in the pond of change.
... Giant leaps on the journey to emotional equanimity (mood continues to be tough nut)
... Learn to better manage & cope with the vagaries of my unpredictable disability which can feel like a leaky boat. 





Wishing everyone an 
AWESOME 2023 full of POSSIBILITY

Haas Scholar Photoshoot

Over the years I've seen students posing for with their grad gear at different locations on campus. 

I ended up in 2 photoshoots for my grad, one with my fellow Calbear David (separate post) and this one with my Haas Scholars cohort, complete with a photo of the champagne bottle shaken and opened and the look of surprise and amazement on all our faces. 





















Last Column

My LAST COLUMN for the Daily Cal




I realized what defined my undergrad experience was not only recognizing some of these opportunities but that it was the support and encouragement at Berkeley that gave me the confidence to pursue them.

I never felt impostor syndrome at UC Berkeley. Rather it was whether I, as a disabled student, would even be allowed access to the opportunities college offers. ....
For much of my life, my disability has meant significant gatekeeping of opportunities. Would I be allowed to thrive here?

....

“Education is the kindling of a flame, not the filling of a vessel,” said Socrates.

Most importantly, my UC Berkeley education kindled the Socratic flame, inspiring me to study what I am passionate about along with new kinds of experiences and knowledge. (Speaking of new experiences, I even got to model for the Cal Student Store. Who would have thought of “Model Hari”?)

“Life is full of change and uncertainty and that’s what makes it a great adventure,” Filippenko said at the lecture.

I am both nervous and excited about what’s ahead. As the Bhagavad Gita explains, change is the only constant in our lives, and one is better off focusing on the action (the sure) and not the results (the unsure). Inaction is not an option.

The Gita also points out that results do not solely depend on my actions. I hope the next stage of my educational journey will be one filled with kindness, compassion, patience and empathy from others and one of personal, endless curiosity and positive action so I can continue to learn and add those pebbles that widen the ripples in the pond of knowledge and change.






SPSS Poster Presentation

Got to present my very first Research Poster at the SPSS (Society for Personality and Social Psychology) conference today.  

Was an interesting experience. 








Haas Scholars Spring Colloquium

 Got the chance to present my to-date findings at the Haas Scholars Spring Colloquium. 



08:02:53 From Leah Carroll to Everyone:
Goooooooo Hari, you're a rockstar!
08:02:59 From Laura Rambo to Everyone:
You got this Hari!!
08:03:05 From Christian Nixon to Everyone:
go Hari!!
08:03:25 From Eunice Paredes(She/ Her/ Ella) to Everyone:
Go Hari!!!
08:10:33 From Kevin McCarthy to Everyone:
Good stuff
08:11:33 From Laura Rambo to Everyone:
Omg how exciting!!!
08:12:44 From Bob Haas to Everyone:
Hari: Great research. You are Berkeley at its best! So proud that you are a Haas Scholar.
08:14:06 From Eunice Paredes(She/ Her/ Ella) to Everyone:
Wow
08:14:45 From David Yaden to Everyone:
This is fascinating and impressive research. Well-done, Hari!
08:16:44 From Dacher Keltner to Everyone:
you are a brilliant and revolutionary scholar Hari. You inspire.. thank you Haas Fellowship program
08:16:45 From Tonatiuh Beltran to Everyone:
Very informative Hari! And the graphs are super helpful
08:17:43 From Kevin McCarthy to Everyone:
Fascinating, enlightening and helpful
08:17:47 From Kristen Gillespie-Lynch to Everyone:
Really thought provoking and rich findings! And I love how you set up how to interpret the findings beforehand.
08:18:30 From Kevin McCarthy to Everyone:
I would not have learned this otherwise. Thank you, Hari.
08:21:36 From Tonatiuh Beltran to Everyone:
Incredible work 👏🏽
08:22:14 From Laura Rambo to Everyone:
Hari this is incredible!! KNOCKED IT OUT OF THE PARK!
08:22:23 From Rungsiri Upradit to Everyone:
Amazing research!
08:22:34 From Patrick Dwyer (he/him) to Everyone:
Really cool research, Hari! I will look forward to seeing it print. I was particularly impressed that you measured SES and thought to include it as a covariate - so much literature doesn't distinguish effects of being autistic vs. the negative experiences and challenges that autistic people often experience, so it is great you did that. It's also awesome (pun not intended) to finally see some evidence of the hyper-empathy autistics have been talking about for a while. Thanks for this very informative and powerful presentation, Hari!
08:22:36 From Jae Manion (Pronounced Mann) to Everyone:
Per usual, Hari brought it all.
08:22:39 From Johnny Smith to Everyone:
Incredible, indeed! Bravo!!!
08:22:41 From Jonah Lounds (they/them) to Everyone:
Remarkable work Hari!
08:22:52 From Christian Nixon to Everyone:
absolutely outstanding!! amazing job, Hari!
08:22:55 From Steven Kapp to Everyone:
Excellent research Hari!
08:22:56 From Kevin McCarthy to Everyone:
Big facts!
08:22:57 From Bruce Carter to Everyone:
I am truly in AWE!
08:22:58 From Lawrence Fung to Everyone:
Amazing work, Hari!
08:23:03 From Jorge Mancillas to Everyone:
Great work, Hari!
08:23:04 From Tim Vogus to Everyone:
Hari, this work is outstanding. I love how many different explorations you took into the data. You really provide a holistic, nuanced, and rich view of awe. Truly exciting and opens up so many possibilities and new understandings.
08:23:06 From Hector Lopez-Orozco to Everyone:
You never fail to amaze me and be inspiring, Hari!
08:23:06 From Danielle Cosmes to Everyone:
We’re in awe of YOU!!
08:23:09 From Meg Evans to Everyone:
Fascinating work!
08:23:17 From Jennifer Ochoa to Everyone:
Wonderful job Hari!!
08:23:21 From Simran Kaur to Everyone:
Amazing Hari!!!!
08:23:27 From Seungwon Lee to Everyone:
So well organized and impactful!!! You’re AWEsome
08:23:34 From Leah Carroll to Everyone:
Hari you're making me cry.
08:23:37 From Laura Rambo to Everyone:
Same here
08:23:45 From Eunice Paredes(She/ Her/ Ella) to Everyone:
BRAVOOOOO!!!!!!!
08:23:46 From Kevin McCarthy to Everyone:
You have a bright future ahead of you, Hari
08:23:51 From Dacher Keltner to Everyone:
what a privilege to be your collaborator Hari. I am in awe
08:23:53 From Violet Henderson to Everyone:
Aware Hari
08:24:00 From Laura Rambo to Everyone:
We love you Hari!
08:24:04 From Violet Henderson to Everyone:
Awesome!!!
08:24:05 From karen nakamura to Everyone:
Incredible talk, thanks Hari
08:24:06 From Tonatiuh Beltran to Everyone:
❤️❤️❤️👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽
08:24:09 From Matthew Vilnit to Everyone:
Does an individuals experience of awe change over time?
08:24:34 From Tyler Shores @University of Cambridge to Everyone:
What a wonderful presentation. Bravo Hari! Can't wait to see what you do in the future.
08:24:39 From Susan Daniels to Everyone:
Congratulations, Hari! Excellent work!
08:24:46 From Tory Benson to Everyone:
Amazing work Hari!! Can’t wait to follow the rest of your research :’)
08:24:57 From Mary Kelsey to Everyone:
Can you give an example of a “small dose of awe” that would be helpful to those with autism?
08:25:42 From karen nakamura to Everyone:
Question: Given that most autistics are raised by non-autistic parents who are not aware of the internal world of autistic and how best to connect with it, and the discrimination that autistics experience; if autistics were raised in a pro-autistic environment what findings do you think would change most in your study?
08:26:13 From Christine Mullarkey to Everyone:
Feel send a longer answer by email - If "small doses" of awe may be most appropriate, how would you go about selecting the experience to get the right "amount of awe" for the individual. Being conscientious to avoid potential harm for overwhelm, but wanting to get enough awe for the benefits.
08:26:21 From Carissa Cascio to Everyone:
Fascinating work, Hari! I’m curious if you have hypotheses about why autistics’ experience of awe seems less tied to physiological sensations than non-autistics?
08:26:28 From Pushpa Raghavan to Everyone:
Hi Hari , Grandma from chennai all the best to you
08:26:35 From Leah Carroll to Everyone:
Can you say more about which emotions autistics feel more intensely, and which they feel less intensely? Are there patterns in what types of emotions are experienced in different ways?
08:27:00 From Leah Carroll to Everyone:
Welcome to Hari's Grandma, logging in from India!!!
08:27:05 From Debra Kraus to Everyone:
I'm in AWE of your beautiful soul and spirit. Thank you for sharing your work today. Congratulations!!!
08:27:25 From Keivan Stassun 
Hari, incredible!!
08:27:26 From Lawrence Fung to Everyone:
Hari, this is spectacular research! It will be wonderful if this research can extend the existing domains included Research Domain Criteria in NIMH. Thoughts?
08:27:51 From Matt Stahl to Everyone:
those characteristics of awe you named at the start exactly characterize my experience of being included in this conference as an alumnus. Thank you!
08:28:18 From Heather Yaden to Everyone:
Thank you for the invite, Hari and congrats to all the amazing Haas Scholars!! ((:




Recruiting autistic participants for Research Study

Please participate if you are above age 18, autistic and live in the US. 






Scan for the consent form (takes 1 minute to complete)

Recruiting Autistic participants for a research study on autism (by an autistic for autistics)

Title: The Autistic Experience of Awe: Can Awe Become a Tool in the Autistic Coping Toolbox?

You are invited to participate if you
1._Identify as autistic (or have an autism diagnosis)
2. Above age 18 and live in the USA

If you would like to participate, please fill out the consent form. https://tinyurl.com/aweconsent

The study will be in english, completely online and takes approximately an hour. It will involve written narratives and multichoice type questions on emotions.

There is no direct benefit to you from this study. However I hope to find broader applications for the autistic community.

For any questions, please contact the student researcher, Hari Srinivasan harisri@berkeley.edu

SPSS

 Another first coming up. I will be presenting my research poster at SPSS conference next Feb. 

My first Psychology conference. 


Writing an abstract



My attempt at the abstract for my research project.

Past research on emotions has viewed autistics from a deficit perspective, as lacking in empathy, emotion recognition and emotional experience; even as other research posits autistic emotion experiences as more intense; and we hypothesize that this could also be true of the autistic experience of positive emotions such as awe. This first of its kind study, draws on the science of awe to examine how autistics perceive and view awe, an emotion shown to have transformative effects. This research looks at how these dimensions of emotion may diverge in autistics from what has been written from a neurotypical (non-autistic) lens. With a target sample size of n=200, the study makes use of existing self-report psychological measures of emotions, includes a new empathy measure in development by the Berkeley Social Interaction Lab, as well as written narratives, from both autistics and non-autistic controls. Data from this study will add to knowledge on: 1) autism & empathy/ emotion recognition, 2) autism & emotional experience, 3) autism & awe. Potential applications include additional tools such as “small doses of awe” that can be added to the coping and navigating toolbox for autistics.



Haas Scholars Fall Colloquium

Presented my research at the Haas Scholars Fall Colloquium today.
Overall, got very positive feedback. 



Prof Brian Powers, Sociology: I’m really overwhelmed with the depth of this research and the impact it's going to have. Well thought out project, personal as it is. It’s incredibly scholarly.

Prof Dacher Keltner, Psychology: I think many of you know that Hari writes for the Daily Cal. When he was in my class, he would send me his poetry all the time. He is a brilliant writer and a brilliant thinker and I think you all felt that in that presentation. That was an incredible tour of 13 minutes and 47 seconds, from the personal to the humorous to the in-depth critique to the societal critique to the measures to the theory. I mean that, I’ve never felt, I’ve never had a presentation in my lab of that precision. The second thing is Hari’s presentation tells us why we need diversity in scholarship. His scholarship is just you know, its a devastating critique on measures and theories out there and we need these perspectives. What a rich perspective, so it was a remarkable presentation and he’s a remarkable young scholar.





 



 

Haas Scholar Orientation

Day 1: Introduction & Icebreakers / Interdisciplinary Exchanges

Day 1: Virtual Escape Room Activity

Day 2: Interdisiplinary Brainstorming

Session with Bob Haas









 

Haas Scholar Reception

A sleepy and groggy me attended the 430am Indian Time (4pm PST) reception for the incoming Haas Scholars. Over zoom of course this year. 83 people logged on alum, faculty, guest, and Bob Haas. In addition to the common programming, we fielded questions about our upcoming research in breakout rooms.

also no picture taken on the event. 

hsp.berkeley.edu/



I'm a Haas Scholar

I'm a Haas Scholar. Only 20 students are selected each year, so rather thrilled. Which means I get mentorship and funding to do my own independent research for a whole year.  This will also be my senior honors research thesis for my Psychology Major. 

 The last few weeks have been spent in getting my Human Subjects Protocol approved by the Institutional Review Board, I'm glad it did not go beyond one round of revisions.  

 I can move onto my next phase of tightening up my design and then participant recruitment.

 
 
 

 
More about the Program from hsp.berkeley.edu
 
"The Haas Scholars Program was founded in 1997 through the generous vision of Robert and Colleen Haas. Each year, twenty highly qualified, academically talented undergraduates... come together to build a supportive intellectual community during their final year at UC-Berkeley. Haas Scholars come from all walks of life and every major on campus, but they are united by their desire to strive for excellence–both in their individual academic pursuits, and as an interdisciplinary cohort...
 
Applicants are evaluated primarily on the merit and originality of their proposal for an independent research or creative project that will serve as the basis for a senior or honors thesis. Once selected, Haas Scholars receive close mentoring from members of the UC-Berkeley faculty, seminars and workshops to assist them in the research and writing process, the opportunity to present their work at a professional conference...

Haas Scholar alumni have gone on to become leaders in their respective fields, including academia, medicine, law, industry, the arts, and public service."